it is so frustrating to be a newbie in this world, in this lifestyle.  i have always been a late bloomer, so i guess this is just part of my personality.  i am longing to learn and explore all of the aspects of submission.  i have chatted on yahoo, answered 100's of messages on collarme (even met a few in person, but no one who wanted to proceed) an offer to be a slave, rather than the sub that i need to start as. 

i am not quite ready to give up, i have a person in mind who claims he isnt dom, so i will continue to be open to opportunities for exploration and growth.

dragonfly